Monday, September 10, 2018

The Universe Within

The Universe Within

Gregory Lewis


The world is a funny place that lives inside out and outside in.  Your eyes see the outside of yourself, internally, for instance.  Or your skin feels the outside world, internally.  All of the senses, seeing, hearing, touching, tasting, smelling, and the sense of touch, sense the outside world, internally.  We sense what is “out there” within the context of our internal sense of I.

We sense what is primarily in near proximity to us through the surface of our bodily boundaries within the near void of our minds.  There is no space in our minds.  There is nothing that can be said of our minds that is not really metaphor, metaphor that can describe the space of our minds.  Even though the word space is used to describe the experience of our mind, it is not actually so.  There is no space.  There really is no existant.  There is only the consciousness of an ever changing “now” and it is related to an ever changing “me”.  

Take for instance the concept of “now”.  When is the now?  Every second is a new now.  Every division of a second is a now.  What is the now?  The past has disappeared.  The future does not yet exist.  The now cannot be named.  Now cannot be fixed and labeled.  Now is a concept, rather than a true existence.    

As well, who am I?  What is me?  I am here in this room.  That much seems to be true.  It also seems that I am this body and internal awareness.   We are not only the body.  A dead corpse may be said to be “so and so” but we no longer consider “so and so” to be existant.  We consider them to be deceased and to be no more.  The corpse will be taken apart by whatever forces of nature act upon it and too will cease to be.  We no longer consider a corpse a personage.  We no longer consider a corpse to be a human being.  The corpse of myself is not me.  Moreover I am the only one who can even somewhat identify my mind.  What I call “myself”, is a composite of the complex of my mind and body in a functioning form.  We do not know really by external observation how these parts, the body and the awareness of the body, are related.  We can observe ionic connection between nervous tissue that seems indicative of the nature of the function of the impulse.  It should seem obvious that the awareness of the body and mind is a function of these reactions.  Awareness it seems, is the product of electro-chemical impulses.  

If you look more deeply there may be a quibble that one could make with the theory of chemical reactions producing awareness.  I do agree that electrochemical impulses are what transmit information about our current world state to our awareness.  What I cannot explain in this is how electrochemical reactions become the elaborate multidimensional display of sensation that we call existence.  There needs to be something intervening between the nerve impulses and a representational awareness.  There needs to be an awareness that maintains the integrity of the physical system in awareness.  This therefore demands that there is a level of actuation that is aware of the body and the body as a cognizing instrument on a higher level, where the body is conceived as such and so.  Moreover this relative integrity of body and personal awareness is maintained even in times of sleep, unconscious and coma.  The inner awareness is cognizant of the physical body and maintains it in relatively similar shape, in accordance with the circumstances of the body.   

What happens when we are interlocked with the world?  Our eyes see, our ears hear, our nose smells, our mouths taste, and our skin feels.  These senses all transmit their sensations to the central nervous system where it is processed by the complete body/brain. complex  Some sensations do indeed cause reactions that are much too fast to have been processed and responded to by transmission and response by the brain.  They have to have been processed and responded to more locally, perhaps as distant as the spinal cord.   Note however that external stimulus must be converted to nerve impulses.  To do this the original information that caused a nervous transmission must be limited to the information of only the type of information of the sense channel(s) it is using.  There must be filtering  of information to what is appropriate to each channel.   At the interface of the channel with the external world, the sensory stimulus is converted to a basic nerve impulse type appropriate to the sense channel type.  For instance, the rods and cones of the eye retina convert photon input into impulses representing forms and colors.   But the eyes do not perceive directly.  They do indeed convert light to representational nerve impulses to form a frame image.   Then each eyes’ nerve bundle splits and the optic nerves transmit  each eye “image” to both hemispheres of the brain.  Is it possible that we could be missing something with a nervous system filtering and picking up only a small part of radioactive wavelengths available to our eyes.  A similar process takes place in all the perceivable vibratory wavelengths that our body can sense.  The sensation at the interfacing sense organ causes nervous impulses to be generated, and an abstract of the sensation is constructed from these sensations in our brain/body complex and is recognized as the reality we experience.  But, it is not the reality.  At best it is a simulation of a limited subset of stimulus that is the “reality” of what we are experiencing.  It is a simulation within our awareness.  The fact that it is a simulation should have us asking questions.  The implication is that the entire world that we experience is a simulation, and it is.  

As a personage in this world I, like you have a body and I am aware of “myself” as myself.  I am aware of myself and of the world around me.  But my perceptions are not your perceptions.  Even though we may be viewing the same, for instance, coffee mug, my perception of the mug is my own and your perception is your own.  We do not even have the same view of the mug.  Lets say the “coffee mug” is sitting on a table in front of us both, you the reader and I the writer.  Immediately we must notice that we do not occupy the same physical space.  Therefore, “you” and “I” are looking at a completely different view of the coffee mug.   I might, for instance see more of the handle of the mug than is afforded at the angle at which you are viewing.  And if we were to trade places and actually be able to look at the mug from exactly the same angle and declination, the time at which we view this mug must be different and not simultaneous.  We probably do not coincide on a subjective level on the view of the coffee mug.  I may be thinking how I might have slept more last night while you may be thinking you have drunk too much coffee today already, or whatever it is that we feel while viewing the “coffee mug”, or whatever we are viewing, with someone.  So you see, we would differ on three aspects at least, the physical perspective, the temporal perspective and our own emotional valence toward the coffee mug, and the contents of each of our minds is to each of us an individual experience.  

We do inhabit only our own space of mind.  Although we inhabit a common world with others, our unique place in that world is ours alone.  Our experience of ourselves is ours alone.  Even our experience of others is ours alone.  We may share common perceptions of another with another (of the second or third party) but we never have the exact same experience.  For almost the same reasons as why we do not exactly share the perception of “the coffee mug”, we do not share a common experience with respect to each other.  We do not share the same experience, no matter how similar.  

You will not experience anything outside of your own self.  Even if you were to meet God, you would not experience God outside of your own experience.  Nor do you experience yourself as outside of your own experience.  The entirety of your experience is within your own experience.   t is somewhat a convoluted statement.  It is tautological. 


So our experience being entirely within our own awareness, lets get back to an earlier theme we have the standard 5 senses and the mind, eyes, ears, nose, tongue, and skin.  There is something that allows us to sense weight and something that senses gravity, these are not included in the traditional schema of 5 senses.  There may be other abilities of the senses.  The mind, for instance, recognizes and distinguishes, emotes, and reasons as well as being the basis on which our self is posited.  Getting back to nervous impulses, our nervous impulses simulate the experience which we are aware of.  They break down and recreate an experience in our awareness that we call our reality.  The key to this is that they recreate an experience.  These experiences define our physical world.  They are simulations, however.  It is not necessary that they are actually “there”, “out there somewhere”, but that they are experienced as “out there”.  In a more absolute sense these experiences are experienced in the mind.  The only experience that we can possibly have is within our mind.  Implicitly, the experience of our body, cells, DNA, atoms, subatomic particles and megaformations such as galaxies and the universe.  All of it is only a simulation within our minds.  

That experience occurs only in the mind cannot be proven or disproven.  We say that we both see a coffee mug, therefore the coffee mug exists.  This we say is an objective proof of the reality of the coffee mug.  However the contradiction that comes in is that though I experience you and the coffee mug, both are experiences within our minds.  Factually, there is no objective referent that exists external to our mind.  The so, called, “objective” witness to experience exists in our own mind.  There actually is no objective referant. 

Things exist as their own entities. Molecules must have a sense of integrity as a molecule, even though the awareness may be a more mechanistic awareness of electromagnetism and valences and the neutrality of complete electron shells or the electric attraction of an incomplete electron shell.  There is a molecular formation and an awareness appropriate to its entity, the recognition of positive, negative and neutral electromagnetic charge.  That is a paradigm common to the formation of different elemental atoms.  They are stable in one configuration and unstable in other formations.  Proton counts determine the type of the element and electromagnetic attractive properties, along with the electron count.   Proton, neutron and electron counts determine the atomic stability and electromagnetic attractive properties.  That each element occupies a distinct place in the periodic classification, and has unique properties suggests that perhaps there is an awareness operating within the formation of each element.  

That there are phenomenon that are operating in the same arena as ourselves, which are beyond the normal unaided senses in order to be aware of, suggests that there is a meta level to the mind beyond this level of awareness of objects and beings of our worlds.   Something holds our collective awareness such that we perceive similar experiences.  The coffee mug that you see is as much in common with the coffee mug that I see, such that we agree in the general idea that there is a coffee mug.  This is Jung’s collective unconscious, this is Buddhist, karma held in common.  

I want to pursue the idea of a self again.  What is the self?  Where is the self?  We undoubtedly experience a self.  That is our ostensible experience.  Our self is considered to be our body first of all.  But if a surgeon excised a part of one, does one call that myself?  The self of the body is composed of parts but these parts cannot be called the self because a self remains after a part of the body is taken from it.  Nor can the experiences of the self define the self.  A completely blind person cannot perceive form, for instance.  Yet the blind individual is a self.  So the senses compose a self but are not essential in themselves to a self.   And the self that we compute and feel, the psychological self, is not composed of one identity.  An emotion such as joy evokes an identity that is different from the identity evoked by anger, as example.  Each being, situation, and circumstance in our life evokes identities that we act from, and guide our thought toward oneself.  This further ideation is what we identify as oneself in the present tense and becomes further identification of the self.  There is no, one, identification that we can call our self.  There is no complete set of ideations of identity because we continuously are forming new identities, therefore there can be no group of identities we can call the self.  Time and space are interrelated in that they both are measures of change and differential   There is no fixed now, but only an approximation of now.  Space is defined by its objects, and the hallmark of space is the differential of prominence of objects with shifts in awareness.  So, we can find nothing that is an absolute self, or an absolute world.  What is labeled “the self” and “the world” are terms we use loosely, as a reference point for sums of approximations.




It is therefore somewhat of a delusion to chase those things of this world, but one acts in this world because one is part of this world, not that it is an absolute reality, but because it is.



Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Empty as a cloud

People look at me like I am crazy about laughing at the curtent situation, Donald Trump, President and the problems associated with a Republican majority in House, Senate, and the Presidentcy.  It is all true and we the people are going to be following with a pooper scooper for awhile after D. J. Trump is out of office.  How terrible!  A lot of people would say that and I think it is all uncannily silly and at times, uproariously funny.  Well, where's the joke someone might ask.  The joke is on you, on all of us.  Hillary was going to be a shoe in.  She did get the majority of the vote.  But Trump took the Electoral vote and really is the President of the United States. How wickedly twisted!  And "A few patriotic Russian hackers" ( Vladimir Putin, around May sometime 2017) may have influenced the vote.  At this moment, Congress and the FBI are looking into it.  I think it is hilarious!  Sorry kids.  See the thing is, that this life too is emptiness, just a cloud blowing your mind.  It is not that the situation is not serious, as it is with every President, we all have to live the life we do.  Changing our life circumstances is changing our karma.  Be cheerful in your lives though, and don't be a part of whatever bad is happening.  Be cheerful in the transformation of American politics, even though only a dream. 

Monday, May 8, 2017

Meditation Is Not It Either

People see me post day after day a notice that I have done 60 or 61 or like tonight 72 minutes of sitting meditation.  Yoga is not only a method of raising your consciousness to some level of exhalted bliss. Yoga is much more about what you do in the other 23 hours of the day.  Do you use your sensitivity to construct a positive life around you?  Are you building a healthy mindscape for you to live in?  Are you developing your intelligence to solve your life problems?  Are you building a healthy external atmosphere that brings happiness,  to be, in this world and joy in the life you are leading.  Meditation is a tool that you can use to refresh your mind and resolve negative ego issues. It is not some big ego offloading thing but just the ability to quiet incessant tugs of desires long enough to let ego structure settle into a more healthy happy, compassionate and loving mindframe, like nature fills in weak structures by ccollapsing into the weak and fills with stronger structure.  And this is not candyass advice.  Most people are always complaining about their lives.  Meditation is a tool that allows you to do something about it, starting with the person in the mirror.

Sunday, January 31, 2016

Dharma Means Truth

In Sanscrit Dharma means "truth"  as a one word English synonym.  Truth and adherence to the truth was considered as religious practice to the ancient Indus Valley civilization.  Truth too,  has levels of meaning.  There are relative and ultimate truths in our own existence.  There is the dharma, or truth of the chair in which I am sitting.  There are also truths in the words we speak and the actions we commit and to the replay value of the stories of our lives as we relive them in memory.  Dharma is also the truth of enlightened but realization of real Dharma is a reflection of the truth with which we live our lives.

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

What's love got to do with it?

I mentioned something on Facebook yesterday that I will talk about today.   I said that by living in love and gratitude, we open to the cultivation and growth of further gifts of the cosmos.  The good feeling engendered by living in loving kindness always inspires one to further  acts of loving kindness because automatically we will feel happiness engendered by our goodwill.  This happiness is contagious.  Other people respond kindly, more often than not to kindness.  This in turn frees us to be more kind, loving, and happy.  When we recollect our good circumstances and are grateful we also tend to be happy with our own lives and a little less drawn by desires for more or other.  We then too become a little freer and fulfulled, content that our lives are not unmitigated sorrow and lost in desiring things.  Love and gratitude set in motion the mechanism of freeing ourselves from the tyranny of suffering and desire and not only frees us but allows for those around us to be freed as well.

Sunday, February 16, 2014

The Radiant Path Of Bhakti

We all bandy about the words "love" and "freedom" as if they were actualized in fact in our lives.  If you take a look around you, you will find yourself in a world torn by suffering,  suffering from greed and desire, suffering of the burning anger that says we should promote ourselves and the whats we want. Suffering from exploitation by bigger egos and ego collectives which maintain their tyranny over us.  We are not free and love can be a very rare commodity.  What we call love is usually our feelings of lust for each other that never really matures into a compassionate understanding of the other and hence we tear each other down and tear up our relationships.

Bhakti is real love.  Not just for you and those you say are family and friends but a more generalized compassion and caring for the suffering of others no matter who they are.  Bhakti actualizes practically as this kind of love.  The love that we have for everything is bhakti.  It is true that we need to earn a living but bhakti will still give without any hope of recompense.  Bhakti gives without concern for what one will receive, bhakti does not care always that "I" have concerns, bhakti may be more worried about satisfying "your" concern.  Bhakti does not obsess about oneself, it is that the bhaktin (the doer of the act of bhakti)  will rise above his need to satisfy your need, if possible.  If it is the case that your need is more of an ego need the bhaktin will perhaps apply a remedy and demand the recompense the bhaktin is due, but it is not a motivation of greed.  It is a simple response to ego exploitation of the bhaktin.  To be free in the sense of having a human body living on this earth is more of a matter of being able to meet the need of the situation rather than squabbling over pesos.  It is being able to correctly identify a situation for what it is and responding appropriately despite what the ego feels.

Bhakti does not just automatically come by listening to a few scriptural readings and asking for forgiveness or listening to somebody preach.  Bhakti is developed and redeveloped over the course of ones lifetime.  Bhakti is not a stasis but a dynamic balance one has with the world and the world and oneself may have differing needs that must be satisfied.  So the development of bhakti is the development of insightful giving and taking.  It is meeting the vicissitudes of life over and over and over again.  We start out by doing and maybe we give charity or things or do for others with the hope of reward.  The world rewards one as it does and often if we are helping someone more helpless than ourself there is very little to be gained but good will.  But that good will is priceless.  On a different level it shines in our hearts and gives us a little more reason to act, a little more reasons to believe in ourself and that we are doing the right thing.  So little acts of bhakta (I hope that bhakta is self explanatory)  give us the courage to act more out of bhakti than out of our ego.  We have just gotten a little freer and self confident and insightful as to the practice of Bhakti and also the problems we face in our own personality flaws.

Being oneself is not a personality flaw.  If one is genuine as to how one feels ones' self we can feel it. Whatever one does there is always a witness in ones own mind that tells us how we feel about ourself when we do things.  Sometimes for right actions it is wrong because what we do is our own ego pimping its need.  But under the good feeling we may have had out of ripping someone off with the expressions of our own needs there is a witness that tells us exactly what we did and it may not feel as good about the act.  Learn to listen for your own inner voice informing you of what you just did.  There are times that one may feel one has made a mistake too, and is pressing one's need over the needs of the rest.  It may well be that it is not a mistake and that it was an act one needed to do to prepare for the future.  We are not always in control.  We are very often channeled into this or that choice by circumstances and no choice is what one would want.  Life is the expression of bhakti and this is always life's expression of love for you.  I will quote John Lilly "Universal love is ruthless, it loves you whether you love it or not."  Best wishes my friends.  Try it.

Saturday, August 31, 2013

I Had A Dream

I don't know, I guess that's a dream common to humanity, to find a deep and caring love. I may never be with anyone who is such in this lifetime. I have thought I met her many times but she has slipped away,leaving me alone, each one of them. Life itself is the unfoldment of perfection. My vision must be flawed because I am not satisfied. You are beautiful, a vision, fading, as I am. Freedom, real freedom is a crazy dream. Everything that one cherishes in this life seems to be another trap for "mara" to throw at one to kind of say "see how you are missing out on life" and watch us chase the bait. Watch us go through our head trips and heart trips...wanting. The yogic idea is to simply accept things that come our way, not to avoid those happinesses that come our way but not to chase them, and to face head on the suffering in our lives and to solve the underlying problem, which is a craving for pleasure that is actually just a reinforcement of our ego to our ego. This is something that kicks me around over and over again and when I think I get the point something new gets me chasing the bait again, ultimately to get clobbered again. I have given up on getting much in the way of compensation for the things I do. Sure I still want to live the "American Dream," get filthy rich, pin down a girl and raise a million brats. But life takes us where it wants us to go. Our only control is our awareness and control of our attitudes. It is enough to generate positive attitudes to our situatiins and gratitude at the possibility of change.