Mindfulness vs Therapist

Mindfullness is an important self thereputic tool. the problem of neurosis is not that the mind is so totally warped that it does not recognize its neurosis. i think maybe lack of love in the world is really the problem, people are trained to think in terms of a scarcity in resources and comfort. this is due to the timelike nature of our environment, not all needs are accomplished instantaneously. so as a consequence of this one feels there is something lacking. and then one goes looking outward for that thing lacking and the timelike nature of the world reinforces feelings of dissatisfaction. ultimately people get so wrapped up in grasping for this thats such that others do not so much matter, it becomes the world of "i wants" and one becomes callous to what those around us want, and we want in the most outrageous ways. people forget that what they want basically is to feel good physically and emotionally and equate these things with objects of the world and we are willing to disregard the wants of others to get the "I want". this in turn does not feel right to the inner being of ourselves, which i stated is not so totally warped as to not know when it really feels good. do you get what I am getting at?

When I was raised I was told I had a conscience.  I observed my mind and saw that it was so.  I do know where I am lying to myself, betraying myself, selling myself out and harming others with it.  We feedback ourselves to ourselves.  Where we go against our better conscience and harm ourselves or others at first we do consciously but later on it becomes habitual.  But we still do know in ourselves and we rebel by becoming more disfunctional, by becoming psychotic.  Once we have reached this point in our neuroses, "oh it is a ponderable chain" to remove.  It  becomes the work of maybe a lifetime or more.  Mindfullness is an important tool in the cure of our neuroses/psychoses.  In the end mindfullness can be more important than a therapist.  What does a therapist do?  The therapist points out you to you.  But external therapists have at times somewhat limited value, since they are quite human, as we all are, and fallible, and biased, with their own neuroses partially solved.  That they might be part of the puzzle of the sorting out of the self is undoubtedly somewhat true, but only we can know for ourselves if we are being "impeccable" to ourselves.  As Freud said "At one point one owes discretion to one's self."  It is at that point we must solve our problems ourselves.

Following the breath and pushing back

When one meditates and is following the breath, it is not a neat trick per se.  When you are concentrating on your breath you are also conscious of the thoughts and feelings but you also are working with a sense of surrender, of being conscious and letting it go. The energies of the emotions are our bottled up energy that forces us into rebirth again and again continuously. When we surrender these into the breath we are freeing that energy and freeing ourselves from another constriction that causes use to act in a deluded manner. Delusion being the unconscious thinking that these emotions are an absolute fact of our being, that they are the truth of our identities.

Surrendering the emotions and feelings into the breath too is a metaphor. It is more like a pushing contest we are engaged in with the energy of our minds.   As we quiet ourselves with the breath, we stop pushing and these little shells that we are holding just slide on by and dissolve. This is what it feels like to me.

Well I Fell For It

I am on Blogspot now.  I was going to go to another blogging site and thought I had...but it IS Blogspot.  Well this is where I am going to dumping some of my crap now.  Ik that was a small one.  Flush now.  :)))